Or, as happens to be the case, The Unshaking Man. Happily, Dylan hasn’t had a seizure since June 2021 when he received a diagnosis of epilepsy following three generalised tonic clonic seizures within six months. At least, as far as we know he hasn’t.
Straws & Water
‘Could you remind staff to offer Dylan extra fluid’, I emailed his care home during this week’s heatwave. One connection that was made, during Dylan’s previous seizures, was with hot weather. Another observation that was made, at the time, was with coronavirus. Dylan, like many young people with autism, found lockdown difficult. There is evidence that epileptic seizures can be brought on by anxiety, something worth considering in relation to a young man whose lack of capacity and speech often leave him with extreme anxiety. This was almost certainly made worse by the pandemic.
At least, that seems a reasonable assumption. It’s not easy to make claims about the medical and social impact of the coronavirus pandemic. While I don’t go looking for hypotheses or urban myths, I trip over a fair few in my real and parasocial lives (although as I’ve recently closed my social media accounts, I should encounter fewer in future). I tend to ignore these and would certainly not want to be responsible for spreading disinformation.
However, something that I’ve been struck by (and hope someone somewhere is investigating) is sudden onset of epilepsy in adults following covid infection. I’ve spoken to several people (in clinical and other settings, as I’ve been supporting Dylan or accessing services myself) who’ve mentioned an adult family member who had an epileptic fit during the pandemic. These were described as one-off incidents that hadn’t developed into regular seizures, as seems to have been the case with Dylan. Maybe I’m clutching at straws, but the possibility that Dylan’s fits were triggered by a covid infection reassures me. I suppose because it would reduce the likelihood of it happening again.
Still, best keep that water bottle topped up.
Scales & Granules
‘How has Dylan put on a stone in weight?’ I asked the care home manager. I already had a suspicion that he wasn’t getting enough exercise (which I’ve written about here). Now the possibility that Dylan’s sweet tooth had outwitted the support workers presented itself. We set up a Food Diary to identify any unhealthy habits. When nothing emerged, it occurred to me that Dylan’s weight gain might be linked to the daily 800 mg of Epilim Chronosphere granules (a form of sodium valproate) he has taken since his epilepsy diagnosis. A call to the GP confirmed this was likely: ‘lifestyle changes would need to be made’, the doctor advised, ‘to offset the long-term impact of the medication’.
‘Lifestyle changes’ in relation to food for someone who is autistic and who lacks capacity (and for whom food is a key interest and pleasure) are not easy to make. In fact, they are rather difficult for Dylan and likely to make him unhappy. Clearly, however, it is in Dylan’s best interest to maintain a healthy weight. If it is the Epilim granules that are raising the reading on the scales, then we must support Dylan to make those lifestyle changes. ‘Just one trip a week to Costa for millionaire’s shortbread, Dylan’.
Happily, once we’d introduced a few changes Dylan quickly shed the excess weight and he is back to his lithe and lovely self. The potential impact of his medication on general health and wellbeing, over the longer term, does raise some questions for me, however.
- Is the Epilim preventing Dylan from having epileptic seizures?
- What if the seizures Dylan had were due to covid or lockdown anxiety?
If the absence of seizures is a result of effective prescribing, an associated weight gain seems an acceptable price to pay. But neither weight gain nor requiring Dylan to make distressing lifestyle changes are justifiable for unnecessary medication. The only way to test for this (controlled reduction of the medication) carries risks. It’s harder to argue the case to trial this with someone else, than for yourself.
Best keep giving the granules, then.
Epilepsy & Empathy
In June 2021, when Dylan had his third and most dramatic seizure, I happened to be reading The Shaking Woman by Siri Hustvedt. The book had been recommended to me by a colleague who suffers from migraines. He had found Hustvedt’s story helpful in managing what had become for him an almost debilitating condition. Reading it might help me to understand my daughter’s severe attacks and to feel more able to support her, he said.
Hustvedt’s story begins in 2006 at a memorial service for her father at the American University where he had been professor of Norwegian until his death in 2004. Siri (an experienced public speaker) is about to deliver an address:
Confident and armed with index cards, I looked out at the fifty or so friends and colleagues of my father’s who had gathered around the memorial Norway spruce, launched into my first sentence, and began to shudder violently from the neck down. My arms flapped. My knees knocked. I shook as if I were having a seizure. Weirdly, my voice wasn’t affected. It didn’t change at all. Astounded by what was happening to me and terrified that I would fall over, I managed to keep my balance and continue, despite the fact that the cards in my hands were flying back and forth in front of me. When the speech ended, the shaking stopped. I looked down at my legs. They had turned a deep red with a bluish cast. (p.3)
Epilepsy is ‘the most famous of all the shaking illnesses’, but Hustvedt’s convulsive illness differed in that it did not interrupt her awareness or speech. The medical center which treated her following the incident diagnosed vascular migraine syndrome. Hustvedt (who had suffered from migraines since childhood) reflected:
Whatever had happened to me, whatever name could be assigned to my affliction, my strange seizure must have had an emotional component that was somehow connected to my father. (p.7).
To make sense of the condition, Hustvedt (who experienced further episodes) embarked on a journey through neurology, psychiatry, and psychoanalysis. What strikes me about Hustvedt’s carefully researched account is the close link it makes between migraine and epilepsy. I began the book in a quest to understand my daughter’s migraines but kept stumbling into my shaking son. Also striking is the possibility that the emotions (specifically empathy) play in role in both conditions.
The nervous overload which triggers migraine attacks and convulsions, it is suggested, could arise from ‘excessive empathy’. Through this lens, a migraine attack or epileptic seizure may be the result of a sufferer identifying too closely with the experience of others. We might describe this as being ‘over-sensitive’ to the feelings of others or (more positively) as emotional intuition. Could it be the case that an awareness of the emotional state of others (in a family, social or professional environment) may lead some people to experience a migraine or seizure? Thinking about the stories in Hustvedt’s book, and my observations of my children and colleagues, I wouldn’t rule out the possibility.
Autistic people, we are sometimes told, are not capable of empathy, but this is an increasingly discredited narrative and one which I have countered in several posts. Now, when I think back to the pandemic years, it strikes me as quite plausible that Dylan (without language or the capacity to comprehend events) relied on his emotional antennae to process what was happening at the time. Although we tried to conceal our anxiety and uncertainty from him, more than likely Dylan will have picked this up from those around him.
Best try to be a zen mum, then 🙂
Notes:
Siri Hustvedt, The Shaking Woman or A History of my Nerves (Hodder & Stoughton, 2011)